Patience

I am seriously struggling with patience right now. I don't remember it being this bad with Cole, but I am dying to know whether baby #2 is a boy or a girl. I feel like I can't do a whole lot more to get ready without knowing, and of course, all the clearance sales that I would LOVE to hit up are right now, and will end before my ultrasound. I even went so far as to look up an elective ultrasound facility, but apparently, unless you live in the Detroit area, people in Michigan don't get to have elective ultrasounds. Boo. I really wanted to find out for my birthday, but I'm sure my doctor won't schedule me a few weeks early just because it's my birthday. I have this awful feeling that baby isn't going to cooperate at the anatomy scan ultrasound, and I'm going to be stuck not knowing until delivery. I'm also really having a hard time not having names picked out for baby yet. If I were picking alone, the names would be set, but clearly, that's not the case (and I don't want it to be!), but it does stress me out to not have names chosen. I just feel like I have many things I need to be doing, and I can't do anything yet, and I am stressed out by that!