Wonder why

I realized this weekend that had I not miscarried in November, I would be having, or have already had my baby. I was due right at the Fourth. It's a very weird feeling. I'm glad I'm pregnant now, or I think I would have had a harder time with this realization...but it was still hard, because while my pregnancy hasn't been the worst one I've heard of, I just don't enjoy being pregnant so much, and I could have been done already. I can't help but wonder why...